It's like you can see inside my head!! It feels so good to know I'm not the only one, which is good when loneliness is a friend of mine. Thank you, Chris. Can't wait to see the plans...
I wish there was a holiday card that exposed the propaganda “they” have perpetrated against us. It’s ok to feel down during these days of long darkness. In fact, it’s perfectly normal. It’s a time of rest not revelry.
This posts really resonates with me. I feel this way often. I find if I'm stuck in a doom loop I have to shake myself out of it and do something else, like read or exercise etc. Anything to break the negative thoughts. Like you said, eventually the fog rises.
This hit the nail on the head for me. I've never felt so disoriented or without purpose in my life as I'm feeling now. So what's next? I don't know....Thankyou!
I’ve also found that detachment looks exactly like watching your own life through a window. Very on-point, Chris. Thank you for sharing this! Looking forward to reading about what’s next for you! And figuring out the same for myself! 🙃
Sometimes I feel more like I'm looking into an old mirror - not quite clear, there's a bit of a darkness in it. It's still my life, but just... removed somehow, like I lived a hundred years ago. I don't have the words for it, but I usually feel it just as I'm falling asleep and the veil is at its thinnest...
Beaming warm thoughts your way. I totally identify, and it’s frustrating and confusing and troubling (even alarming at times). Part of self-compassion for me is trying to do what Krista Tippett calls “living the question.” Leila’s wise words above really landed for me, too.
That resonated with me. Thank you for this honest sharing, Chris. There are many days where I quite feel out of my life, disconnected from other people and myself. In a state of melancholy somehow. I don't like that experience, but from experience I know that this won't last. So I make the best I can out of those days, and I extend a lot of self-compassion to myself (took me a while to learn to do this) to support myself throughout, rather than adding on to the misery by thinking "What is wrong with me?". I still find it difficult to understand and accept it at times, but I try to move through those days with as much grace as I can master. I focus on little things, I go back to the basics, and I don't let myself slide down. That way, I no longer fall into despair and depression. I know that this is just one of those days.
You are not alone, Chris. This is me most days anymore (and has been for the past few years). And in seeing these comments, it feels good to know I am not the only one feeling this way.
Your honest transparency is very much appreciated, Chris.
I don't know if this might be part of it for you, but I feel it is for me -- living in end-capitalism/apocalyptic times can alternately rev me up or wear me down greatly. Even if I'm not explicitly thinking of this zeitgeist we're all in, I think it seeps into me at some level and can impact how I see my future, our collective future. And that impacts how I relate to any future goals or plans. I don't have an answer to it, just feel it as an ominous presence. But paradoxically, it's one that also contains possibility.
I start dreading Christmas around June, because of several past traumas on Christmas Eve. I also have 5 children to buy presents for and make Christmas Eve dinner and the house perfect, of course. I found this year, after attending a 2 1/2 month partial hospitalization group therapy program and starting ketamine therapy treatments for my depression- that I am stronger than I think. It all went so smoothly and peacefully. Maybe next year I won’t dread it at all and just enjoy the spirit of giving and loving, hopefully the depression and perfectionism will be behind me. Happy New Year to All.
Thank you for your honesty. My therapist told me I’m fully present during ‘trauma’ times but not so much during the ordinary days. The pane of glass that separates us from our feelings and experiences must offer a clue about how to remove it, but I’m still working on it. Nice to know I’m not alone.
It's like you can see inside my head!! It feels so good to know I'm not the only one, which is good when loneliness is a friend of mine. Thank you, Chris. Can't wait to see the plans...
I wish there was a holiday card that exposed the propaganda “they” have perpetrated against us. It’s ok to feel down during these days of long darkness. In fact, it’s perfectly normal. It’s a time of rest not revelry.
perhaps a revelry of rest?! stealing for my holiday plans 😴
This posts really resonates with me. I feel this way often. I find if I'm stuck in a doom loop I have to shake myself out of it and do something else, like read or exercise etc. Anything to break the negative thoughts. Like you said, eventually the fog rises.
Thanks for a great post.
This hit the nail on the head for me. I've never felt so disoriented or without purpose in my life as I'm feeling now. So what's next? I don't know....Thankyou!
It is written so clearly, and definitely came at a time I needed and wasn’t even aware of it. Thank you.
I’ve also found that detachment looks exactly like watching your own life through a window. Very on-point, Chris. Thank you for sharing this! Looking forward to reading about what’s next for you! And figuring out the same for myself! 🙃
Sometimes I feel more like I'm looking into an old mirror - not quite clear, there's a bit of a darkness in it. It's still my life, but just... removed somehow, like I lived a hundred years ago. I don't have the words for it, but I usually feel it just as I'm falling asleep and the veil is at its thinnest...
Beaming warm thoughts your way. I totally identify, and it’s frustrating and confusing and troubling (even alarming at times). Part of self-compassion for me is trying to do what Krista Tippett calls “living the question.” Leila’s wise words above really landed for me, too.
That resonated with me. Thank you for this honest sharing, Chris. There are many days where I quite feel out of my life, disconnected from other people and myself. In a state of melancholy somehow. I don't like that experience, but from experience I know that this won't last. So I make the best I can out of those days, and I extend a lot of self-compassion to myself (took me a while to learn to do this) to support myself throughout, rather than adding on to the misery by thinking "What is wrong with me?". I still find it difficult to understand and accept it at times, but I try to move through those days with as much grace as I can master. I focus on little things, I go back to the basics, and I don't let myself slide down. That way, I no longer fall into despair and depression. I know that this is just one of those days.
Thank you for this wise comment, Leila.
My pleasure, Asha! I'm glad if my words helped. Take good care :)
You are not alone, Chris. This is me most days anymore (and has been for the past few years). And in seeing these comments, it feels good to know I am not the only one feeling this way.
Your honest transparency is very much appreciated, Chris.
I don't know if this might be part of it for you, but I feel it is for me -- living in end-capitalism/apocalyptic times can alternately rev me up or wear me down greatly. Even if I'm not explicitly thinking of this zeitgeist we're all in, I think it seeps into me at some level and can impact how I see my future, our collective future. And that impacts how I relate to any future goals or plans. I don't have an answer to it, just feel it as an ominous presence. But paradoxically, it's one that also contains possibility.
I start dreading Christmas around June, because of several past traumas on Christmas Eve. I also have 5 children to buy presents for and make Christmas Eve dinner and the house perfect, of course. I found this year, after attending a 2 1/2 month partial hospitalization group therapy program and starting ketamine therapy treatments for my depression- that I am stronger than I think. It all went so smoothly and peacefully. Maybe next year I won’t dread it at all and just enjoy the spirit of giving and loving, hopefully the depression and perfectionism will be behind me. Happy New Year to All.
There with ya right now, Chris. <3
Thank you for your honesty. My therapist told me I’m fully present during ‘trauma’ times but not so much during the ordinary days. The pane of glass that separates us from our feelings and experiences must offer a clue about how to remove it, but I’m still working on it. Nice to know I’m not alone.
Thank you Chris. This resonates with me, right now. The lack of daylight hours, surely, nudging me away from myself.
Grateful for your series
Thank you for sharing this. A lot of us can relate.